makes me happy.
Life has been continuing on.
And, it also, has not.
My friend Doug passed away this month.
Doug and I spent a few years hanging out together about twenty years ago. We've stayed in touch over the years with sporatic updates of all the wonderful things (marriage, children, birthday wishes) life has to offer.
Last Thanksgiving it wasn't a wonderful update I received. Doug had been diagnosed with a rare type of adrenal cancer.
These past six months I've thought about Doug, and his wife, and their boys, every single day.
I would often send emails, asking how he was doing, letting him know I was sending all the good energy I could. His replies were always positive, letting me know he was fighting with everything he's got.
And then he passed.
And it hurts. It hurts that this amazing human being wasn't afforded the luxury of growing old. It hurts to think of him missing Celeste and the boys, and it hurts to think of them missing him.
A few words from this piece by Eckhart Tolle has helped ease my sadness...
Death is a great opportunity because death is one way in which the formless dimension comes into this life. It’s precisely at the moment of the fading of the form, that the formless comes into this life. But if that is not accepted, and the fading of form is denied, then it’s a missed opportunity.
It’s the contemplation of death and the acceptance of the impermanent nature of the human form that opens up, if you accept it. Don’t intellectualize it. Don’t come to some kind of conclusion about it. Just stay with the simple “isness” of the fact of the impermanence of the human form, and accept that for what it is without going any further.
So, without 'conclusion' life goes on.
And we visit the zoo,
to have as much fun
posing on top of,
and beside the animal statues,
as we do contemplating the jellyfish as if they were stars in the sky.
It is in Doug's life, and in his death, that so many of us will shine brighter for knowing him.
That was just the kind of star he was.